one rainy night

if you look close enough to the world around you.
you might find someone like you
someone trying to find their way
someone trying to find their self
sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world
who's struggling, who's frustrated,
unsatisfied, barely getting by.
but that feeling's a lie
and if u just hold on.
just find the courage to face it all for another day
someone or something will find you
and make it all okay
because we all need a little help sometimes
we need someone to remind us
that it wont always be this way
that someone is out there
and that someone will find you.
when you did find me. i bailed on you
when i ahd waited my whole life for you to find me
through the dark times but mostly during the happy times
i waited for you to hold my hand
but when u did find me.
 when i had stoped believing in the concept of you
it was too much for me to handle
i didnt know what to do with you
i've always feared the unknown
and you were one unpredictable variable
its raining today and the sky is red
i am scared
i am scared of whats to come
i am scared of what has been
but most of all
i am scared of what i am
i am scared of the power you have over me
i bail out when the going gets tough
i dont know the reason
may be i do know the reason
but that doesnt matter
even you being in the same city
makes me happy
but i am scared of talking to you
i just wish you could read my mind
their is a pang in my stomach
then my htroat constricts
my nose tingles and my eye's mist up
never once a tear falls
i take deep breaths
sky is red this night
when the day had been gray
rain pouring down hard
wilting the white petals closed
i am scared
will the sun still come up tommorow