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the day is upon me, the day when its do or die. well atleast get admission in the university or not.

the day that will decide the course of my life. where i live with whom i live and what not.

I am scared! terrifyingly so.

i've got butterfly's in my stomach and acid burn too.

how am i going to sleep.

i cant talk to anyone. because i dont talk to anyone.

i've cut out myself from everyone :(

sometimes i think i care too much.

whom can i tell that i am scared?

my dad? he'll just tell me its natural to feel so.

my mom? she'll just start worrying and grilling me questions. on top of that she'll fuss.

my brother? he wont understand y i am scared in the first place.

i havent cried in a while, i feel all the emotion that i keep buried rise up. it'll gush out at a completely unexpected time . i want to cry now....

what i need is some one who'll listen to me when i tell them i am SCARED. then let me sit in there lap and cry my heart out.someone who'll sooth me. someone who'll rock me to sleep.

what will happen is, i get up go do some work not talk to neone. do some more worrying , not talk to neone. thats how is always goes. i not talk to neone.

i have these whole conversation in my head but cant speak a single word to people i wanna have a conversation with.

so let me go not talk to neone. and not talk to neone!