To My Lost Friend!

" I've never felt the

pain of lost love,

It cant be any greater

than what I am feeling now!

I know I was wrong (too)

but it feels like I was the only one wronged,

what can I do?

I still feel that way!

I am happy that we would drift apart this way,

rather than saying things to each other

that I know will hurt each of us the most,

I believe,its better this way!

You may call me a coward

but whatever I feel for you rite now,

I wont let it taint the way

I still feel for you in a corner of my heart!

(and would feel forever)

I still wanna remember you as the person

without whom I couldn't exist!

I know that I could've forgiven you

But how many times can I forgive n forget!,

I find that really difficult

when i am right !

THEN, I could kill anyone in their sleep,

if they made you unhappy.

But what do I do now,

If that anyone is ME?

I love you still

that's why it hurts so much!

I don't wanna become some1,

who's happy in your misery!

Ultimately its better this way all around

you being my best friend,

rather than me being

your brand new enemy!"

Why does it feel like someone is ripping your heart out.......

When its the one you love the most, hurts you!

Why do there have to be so many complication's in friendship???

When we have grown up?

Why do the dynamics of freinship change so frequently?

May be I am the world's biggest sadist.

I love misery, be it someone else's or mine!

May be I am the most convoluted person,

May be I'll rot in hell!