To Miss Someone*.....

"Its wise of one to learn and adopt from other people's mistake.

Its a fool who thinks he wont make a mistake."

You know what... the joke's on me. I am that fool!

its 3.30 in the morning.....

i am still awake. 

Before today i never knew what it was to miss someone.

so much so that it physically hurts you.......

Its like a splinter is lodged in my eye, every time i blink it reminds me of what i miss!

Its as if everytime u think of them your heart contracts in your chest, letting you know that something is missing in the cavity!

Its as if you know someone took away a chunk of your soul with them.....

Its as if the infinite uncertainity kills u every second....

and there are so many seconds in infinity!

Its as if there is this ache in your belly that just wouldnt go away....

Its like some one is sitting in your brain waiting to pounce, just as start to forget, it drills with a tiny hammer, with each tap chanting a name!

AND its as if i am crazzy to the core...

I thought when people told me about this that they were exaggerating....literally!

I truely believed that... 

But only after a day my lovely bubble has been burst...

and it pains me so!

 

Time can't heal pain that won't mend
The suffering, the heart ache
It feels like the end
Grasping a hold of a moving change
Trying to pick up pieces to put the puzzle back together
For nothing can last forever
Grudges are held…never letting go
Feelings are hurt…But they wouldn’t listen
But behind every fight there is a reason why
The one you love didn’t make it to your future
And why they didn’t try

I always believed that all this touchy feely emo stuff was crap......

love= pain........frndship=love without pain!

NO NO NO dont tell me i know my maths is in the gutters.....i made the whole equation wrong.

it isnt a silly mistake... may be it was a delibrate one.

now i know that 

if love=pain 

then frndship=love -pain is

invalid... 

well how was i to know that it was real!

all i know is i am in deep

but i know how to swim...n i know i can cross over to the other side!

this stuff is making me crazy...

but i still have some fight left in me, i wont let it control me nor would i let it influence my decisions!

all i  can say is..........

I know your there
but my worlds so bare.
Nothings standing in your way,
I’m hoping you can make it one more day.

Our relationship had grown so strong,
where could we have went so wrong.
You were there when I needed you,
Now I’m here for you to need me too.

My love for you will stay the same,
never will I forget your name.
By my side, you will always stay,
I'll think of you day by day.

oh my god... please save me!

(*=fiction, coz i dont feel these thing......i am a heartless person)